Bonjour mes amours,

Hope you all had a lovely week .

I totally intended to post last night but I ended up falling asleep on the couch, waking up for dinner and then I spent no less than two hours showing my mom YouTube videos haha.  She always *knew* of YouTube but had never used it herself so I showed her some of the best YouTube has to offer! : Obscure songs from her youth, adorable (fat) cat videos, XFactor clips and of course Lady Gaga videos (she didn’t enjoy those for some reason.) All and all it was a lovely evening — but my apologies for not posting!

The last few days have been kind of strange for me.  I’ve been really unmotivated to do anything concerning my project — mainly because I’m still struggling in this whole “show theme” department.  I keep going back and forth between three main ideas and can’t seem to settle on what’s going to be best for the show.  Of course I want this trip around the world to reflect all of the things I want to do — but on the other hand I also want it to be entertaining for the viewers! Watching me learn to do yoga in an ashram is probably not as riveting a visual as say scaling the Himalayas?

In addition to all of that, I’m starting to try to narrow down my list and make a more realistic travel plan.  Although I do want to hit 26 countries on this journey, I’m going to try and scale it back to 18-20.  The main reason for this because I want the chance to do each country justice — but the other part is because I’d really like the opportunity to hit up Central or South America on this trip and by scaling back my Asia or European adventures, I’ll have more money, thus more opportunities.  High on that list is traveling to Peru to see not only my friend Jennifer but also to do some volunteer work .  (Oh and then there’s that Machu Picchu thing. Maybe you’ve heard of it? Hahaha)

As I’ve whined about before, I’m having a hard time brainstorming just by myself.  I miss not only having a partner to do that with, but even just the opportunity to speak to people outside of my producing circle.  Editors, DOPs, Directors, writers, the list goes on.  The most challenging part of this whole show thing is that I’m intending to do it all by myself.  Not me framing shots and filming someone else (something I’m actually good at) — but me filming myself (something I’m beyond terrible at).  Of course I always love a new challenge and I’m ready for anything, but I feel remarkably unprepared for this.  I feel that if I had the chance to discuss all of these ideas with them, they could point out some flaws in my plan that I’m not thinking about at this point.  Not only that but give me suggestions, tips, feedback and even encouragement — what can I say, I still miss my film family.

This of course has my toying around the with the idea of applying for grants, sponsors, etc. and trying to raise as much money as possible and then bringing someone along with me and either filming them or them filming me.  The upsides to this : easier to film, I don’t necessarily have to be on camera, not traveling alone for a year. The downsides to this : it’s a shit ton more money for me to raise, I might have strong urges to kill that person during the journey and I can’t say that my years of Criminal Minds watching won’t help me… Since I also have plans to meet up with other friends along the way, It might also create this strange third wheel scenario that always seems to happen when traveling.   So far — the odds are not in favor of the $$ so we’ll see what happens over the next few months I suppose.

What’s most important here though… is that I’m thinking about all of these things.  While I might not have anyone physically here to brainstorm with — it doesn’t mean I can’t make phone calls, skype dates, text, facebook message, tweet, etc.  I might not have come to a point where I’m really sure about anything yet — but I’ll have a breakthrough eventually, just takes more research, more chats with my friends and more money saving :p.

Well I’m off to get some Christmas stuff done — mailing letters, wrapping gifts, paying bills — and then of course watching me some Christmas movies — not sure which one yet though! Leave me a suggestion below!

Peace&Love.

P.♥