Hallo my friends.
By the time I’ll have posted this post, I’ll have already spent 2 weeks writing and polishing it. I guess I just have a lot to say about the last 20 months of my life, and there’s nothing I’d love to do more than to share it with y’all. So with just 7 days left in VanCity, here I go.
Two and half years ago I made the life changing decision to go to film school. I didn’t really know what to expect, but after years of confusion, it was time to give in, and follow my dreams. My boyfriend at the time, Steve, had also applied, and on that same impossibly cold day in January, we looked across the computer store we worked at together, and smiled from ear to ear cause we had both been accepted.
I worked two jobs to pay off my massive CC debt, and in any of my free time, I was out with my friends to soak up as much of them as I possibly could. My mom and I spent months putting boxes together, buying all of the items required for a gourmet kitchen, a tasteful living room, and a well equipped bathroom. I bought all new IKEA furniture, and put it together myself, and made picture frame upon picture frame to hang on my apartment’s overly white walls. I was ready.
On December 28th, 2009, my parents, Steve’s parents, our cats and I, started the 12 hour trip from Edmonton to Vancouver, and while I was ecstatic, I was pretty scared. I had never actually lived in my own place before. In the past I had “moved in” with boyfriends, and while sometimes I spent a lot of time decorating their homes, it never felt like a place of my own, and here was my chance to do that. Two days after moving in, Steve arrived from Alberta, and we settled into our new home. We both started school, made new friends, and fell in love with Vancouver. Unfortunately for us, we didn’t exactly have the same ideals and goals, and that led to a separation between the two of us within weeks of arriving there. Now I was really alone.. and double scared.
I hadn’t really been single much before (no really, since I was 15, I pretty much consecutively had a boyfriend) and I didn’t know how to feel about it. I didn’t know how to care about myself instead of devoting all of my time and energy to another, and I’m proud to say that the last two years, have been the years of loving Patsy. I never realized the importance of being happy in one’s own skin before, and how it affects the relationships we get into, and while it was an impossibly difficult lesson to learn, I’m so very happy I did.
In addition to that, going back to school taught me a whole lot about the entertainment business, and even more about life. How to separate the person from the issue. How to overcome my fear of flying. How to tell a good idea from a great idea, and that nothing will go anywhere without an audience. Talk about a whirlwind year, but easily, the most rewarding thing I’ve done in my life so far. As exciting as all of that was, the following year was the one I discovered who I am.
Just trying to describe the city that has captured my heart brings tears to my eyes. I can’t begin to explain the love affair I’ve had with Vancouver, it’s streets, it’s people, it’s food, and sometimes I wonder why I’m ending it. Living here, I’ve found the friends I’ve been looking for my entire life. The friends who aren’t your friends simply for proximity reasons. The ones who share your interests, passion, drive, and dedication. The friends who understand why you put in a 20 hour day because your editor left you high and dry and help you out when you can’t figure out how to use final cut. The friends who take you out for a beer (or in my case, a sprite) and a pat on the back when things just do not goes as planned. The friends who ask for your help, and you don’t even hesitate for a half second because you know they’d do the same for you. I’ve found them all here, and as I sit here and write this, I still can’t believe I’m leaving…
So now I guess it’s time for the whole reason behind this post. To say a special thanks to each and every one of the people who has changed my life in the last two years, in whatever way they did. You’re in for a long one!
To Jessica Clark-Bojin, Ken Ashdown, and Christine Baudry. Thank you infinitely for providing the structure and lessons we all needed to keep going all year long. Even more so for the opportunities you’ve helped me out with since school ended, you don’t know how much it means to me. (And thanks again Ken for helping me tackle my fear of flying! You have no idea how much it’s helped me in the last year.)
To (in no particular order) Oktay Kesebi, Ryan Atimoyoo, Orrin Stroll, Robyn Wiener, Robyn Matthew, Ryan Eves, Ryan Nadel, Jonas Woost, Louise Lee, Michael Price, Dan Moscrip, Michael Baser, Mark Vescovi, Yvette Dudley-Neuman, Leah Rubin, Mary-Ann Crevier, Myron Campbell, Hannah Hughes, Alastair McLeod, Brett Forsyth, Sebastien DeCastell, Michael Chase, Erik Paulsson, Adam Gooch, Ivan Allan, Kat Montagu, Miles Nurse, Nicholas Humphries, Sasha Iwanick, Stephen Webster and any of the other wonderful instructors or guest speakers that I may have missed. You are all such a talented bunch of people, it really amazes me. The fact that I got to learn so many tricks from all of you in your various fields, is truly priceless. I know our paths will cross again one day, and I can’t wait to hear about your adventures, and to tell you about mine.
To my classmates, Nadeem Siddiqui, Sandra Rojas-Gonzalez, Jayo Staxx, Ivan Maltsev, Janelle Miguel, Benjamin Morales, Myles Messinetti, Justin Norton, Mike Chen — and the five we lost along the way haha. Between our laughs, our fights, our singing, our shared frustration, our secret jokes and all those cakes, you guys taught me a whole lot about growing up, acting classy, and what it means to be passionate. Each and every one of you has made a lasting impression on me, and I know that the 10 EBM10s are going to take over the world some day, so watch out!
To Sam & Ian. Two people who took such wonderful care of me last year, whether it was a last minute fix on credits or print materials, or just a listening ear, you two really were my support system through it all, and I can’t thank yas enough. I know you’re both destined for great things, and I can’t wait to hear what you do next, wherever the three of us may be.
To the Bob & Andrew crew, Darren Borrowman, Keith Opatovsky, April Green♥, Lauren Martin♥, Tom Belding, Jordan Ewan, Betsy Lake, Malin Sjostrom, Jenny Wilkinson, Red Heartbreaker, Jan Floor, Jeff Meagher, Ian Berg, all of our wonderful extras, and then of course Bob Woolsey and Andrew Menzies themselves. You guys really stepped up and became my second family here in Vancouver, and I love y’all for welcoming me into your group without hesitation. Thanks for having faith in me, what I can do and giving me a chance. Also, thanks to you, I’ve never been to so many fundraisers in my life! Haha.
To Nikki & Marcel who invited me to their Love Party, and gave me back my faith in love and romance ;).
To the multiple variations of the Miles Off Track crew, Myles Messinetti, Sebastien Dryland, Ryan Jackson, Lindsay Eeson, Sean Gilchrist, Ellie Irwin, Greg J. Brown, Justin Balboa, Malin Sjostrom, Jay MacMillan, Jesse Hill, Ian Berg, Bob Woolsey, Ryan Dunning, Michael Cooke and all of our supporters. If it wasn’t for you guys believing in me, this project would never have gotten off the ground. It may have stayed on the ground haha, but it doesn’t mean that it’s dead. You gave me the power to create something I loved, and the faith that I can do it again with more resources. I can’t thank you enough.
To Mr. Van Straaten. I don’t think there’s anyone in the world who understands me like you do. We always joke about being each other’s other halves, but I don’t think there any other way to describe the relationship we’ve built. You’ve taken me on so many musically filled adventures across our beautiful city, listened to my many boy-problems, and shared some of your own that made mine pale in comparison haha. I’m thrilled you’re the one taking me back to Alberta, our first home, and I’m sure that one way or another, we’ll back in the same city again one day. (Even if you’re just visiting to shuffle your grind’r haha)
To my wife, KB <3. There are very few people out there who get me like you do, and have the passion and drive to be successful like you do. You inspire me every day to try harder in everything I do :). Alberta pride, and wife fo lyfe!
To all the rest of my VFS friends, colleagues and clients (there are just way, way, way, too many of you to name.) Thanks for the memories, the projects, the learning and the laughs. No matter where any of us end up, we’ll always remember our time here.
Now a bit more about the man who changed my life more than he knows… Bob Woolsey!
Bob, you inspire me to be a better person every single day of my life. Whether it’s just pushing me into giving my all to a project, learning how to solve my own problems, or helping someone who needs me to; you’ve set an amazing example, and I hope to follow it for years to come. If I can one day be for someone else, who you have been for me, I know I’ll have done my part.(Also, I’m still expecting you and Alan to come visit me in sunny SoCal! ASAP!!)
And lastly — to KB, April, Menzies, Mike, Dan, Cat, Jess, Marcel, Nikki, Barb, Lauren and anyone else who helped me with moving materials, moving places, crashing on couches, and whatever else. You guys rock!
As for me? Well, I’m finally at peace with leaving. I’ve made sure to do a lot of living in my final days here, and I know that these people will be my “forever friends”, no matter where we end up. I’m kind of scared about what’s next in the book of Patsy, because for once, it’s pretty up in the air. I don’t have any official moving to LA plans, or concrete job offers, and the more I think about it, the more I think I will have to go on one last adventure before taking off there.. who knows. Bali might be calling my name… or thailand.. or peru.. or .. or.. or..
So Vancouver, as I prepare to bid you and your people adieu, remember that I love you, and don’t ever change. (I’ll be back someday.) (soon.)